Very early in the pregnancy at 4 week
Another pic at 11 1/2 weeks
And finally I think I'm starting to show at 15 1/2 weeks
What do you think?
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Bump pictures!
Here are some pictures of my developing bump. Warning: I kind of have bad posture. I always have. I stand with my back arched and my butt sticking out. I'm not sure why I do this, but standing any other way feels unnatural. So it already looks like I have a bump before I was even pregnant. But I think I'm developing one at least my pants are telling me that I am.
Thursday, January 21, 2010
Ok, so boredom has finally overcome at work. I was busy for a few days then it slowed down to a crawl today. My four-day weekend was really nice and productive. DH and I cleaned out our storage area down below. Basically, we separated stuff into piles of stuff going in the trash, stuff going to goodwill, and stuff that we keep. We had a lot of junk down there that we had been holding on to for some reason or another. The nerd in me was sad to throw away all of my notes, exams, and readings for school, but it was time to let go. It felt good to get rid of all of junk and the storage area is much better organized and ready for stuff that we will have to move out of office to make room for a nursery.
I drove out Saturday morning to suburbia to look at some maternity clothes that I had seen on craigslist. The lady was offering over 30 pieces of clothing for $100, which is an awesome deal. She was nice enough and had 3 kids (one stepdaughter). Her little baby was almost one year old and adorable. Her other son was 17, so the clothes spanned a long time. Some of the clothes were not things that I would wear especially this one pair of jeans that were total mom jeans (we put those in the goodwill pile). But the 5 pairs of work appropriate pants alone were worth the money. So I paid the money and left (there was little to no chance that I wasn’t going to buy them considering I had to drive 50 min to get there). The rest of the weekend passed uneventfully. We went to a friend’s place Sat night for some drinks, snacks, and football.
So baby related stuff, I weighed myself the other day and it looks like I’ve gained about 6 pounds, which is fine. I guess it’s a little more than other woman, but I’m comfortable with it and my doctor was fine with it the last visit. I’m not quite fitting in maternity clothes yet, but I have been wearing them. My jeans are pretty tight and uncomfortable, but when wearing the one pair of maternity jeans I’ve bought they tend to sink down and won’t stay up. So I’m in the in-between stage, I guess. I really just want my stomach to get bigger so I can wear them. I wore the jeans to target the other day and I think I definitely looked pregnant. I noticed a few people smiled at me, so I guess other people might have noticed as well. Yay! All of these pants though are too long which is a problem. I guess I will cut the jeans. But I will have to get the work pants hemmed. That will be pricey. I wish I had a sewing machine so I could do it myself.
Our next doctor’s appointment is next Friday and I can’t wait just to hear the baby’s HB. We will schedule our big ultrasound as well! I’ve been getting increasing questions regarding the baby’s sex and I keep telling people we’ll know in a few weeks.
I drove out Saturday morning to suburbia to look at some maternity clothes that I had seen on craigslist. The lady was offering over 30 pieces of clothing for $100, which is an awesome deal. She was nice enough and had 3 kids (one stepdaughter). Her little baby was almost one year old and adorable. Her other son was 17, so the clothes spanned a long time. Some of the clothes were not things that I would wear especially this one pair of jeans that were total mom jeans (we put those in the goodwill pile). But the 5 pairs of work appropriate pants alone were worth the money. So I paid the money and left (there was little to no chance that I wasn’t going to buy them considering I had to drive 50 min to get there). The rest of the weekend passed uneventfully. We went to a friend’s place Sat night for some drinks, snacks, and football.
So baby related stuff, I weighed myself the other day and it looks like I’ve gained about 6 pounds, which is fine. I guess it’s a little more than other woman, but I’m comfortable with it and my doctor was fine with it the last visit. I’m not quite fitting in maternity clothes yet, but I have been wearing them. My jeans are pretty tight and uncomfortable, but when wearing the one pair of maternity jeans I’ve bought they tend to sink down and won’t stay up. So I’m in the in-between stage, I guess. I really just want my stomach to get bigger so I can wear them. I wore the jeans to target the other day and I think I definitely looked pregnant. I noticed a few people smiled at me, so I guess other people might have noticed as well. Yay! All of these pants though are too long which is a problem. I guess I will cut the jeans. But I will have to get the work pants hemmed. That will be pricey. I wish I had a sewing machine so I could do it myself.
Our next doctor’s appointment is next Friday and I can’t wait just to hear the baby’s HB. We will schedule our big ultrasound as well! I’ve been getting increasing questions regarding the baby’s sex and I keep telling people we’ll know in a few weeks.
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
I blame hormones…
Over the last weekend or so, I have been getting very emotional over work, DH, etc. It felt like PMS or something, which of course it is not. I blame the hormones for my irritability. I got home on Friday after a rough day at work and I realized I wasn’t even happy that I was home and that it was Friday. All I could think was Monday morning I have to go back to this job that I hate. I think it was a combination of a bad work week and having nothing fun planned for the weekend. I was short with DH because he hadn’t started cooking the rice that we needed to go with our leftovers. I was starving yet we had nothing to snack on. After an uncomfortable dinner, I went to the office and starting crying from the crappy day that I had had. DH came in and comforted me and I got over it eventually.
The next day, I went to yoga around noonish and ran a few errands. I came home and realized that DH had gone to a porn website. Grrr…..I don’t know. I guess I don’t really care that much if he looks at porn. He does it rarely and if I don’t know about it and it doesn’t affect our sex life, that’s fine with me. But this is not what I needed now. It hurt because we hadn’t had sex in a few days, because neither he or I had initiated it. I’m still in the “I look fat” stage of pregnancy and feeling self-conscious. I mean, I’m here to have sex with him whenever he wants it. I rarely turn him down. It is much more likely that he will turn me down. I broke down again. DH apologized profusely and said that he was just bored and that if he knew that it upset me, he would never do it. It was just really bad timing. I’ve also told DH in the past I don’t want him going to those websites on our computer, because I don’t want viruses.
We talked and made up and then had some nice make-up sex later that day. The rest of the weekend passed uneventfully. I was kind of bored really and wish that it was warmer and I was more inspired to go out. DH kind of annoys me with his unwillingness to do anything on the weekends. Like he was whining so much about going to the grocery store on Sunday like we usually do, that I let him off the hook and went and did it all. He agreed to make our lunches for the week. He made this really yummy butternut squash soup that we found a recipe for in a What to Expect Eating Right book that someone got me. We make enough for 8 servings and portion it out into little containers and voila, we have lunches for the week. Shopping was a PITA though. Target was insanely crowded, but the deals were so good, I couldn’t pass them up. I hate crowds when shopping and the entire shopping complex was insanity. I stopped at Barnes & Noble to use up a GC I got for Christmas. I got a pregnancy yoga/pilates DVD, another historical fiction book , and ordered a hypnobirthing book that will be delivered soon. Then it was on to Giant to get the rest of the stuff on our list. I got a lot of groceries and I spent a decent amount of money but it is all stuff that will get eaten or used. I wish that we could budget better for groceries, but it is difficult. We try to eat healthy and eat some things organic so it makes it more expensive. We do shop some sales, but many times we decide the menu without looking at the sales. I figure we should have a fully stocked fridge and as long as we’re eating everything in the fridge and pantry and we’re trying to be healthy, then we’re doing pretty good.
I’m more revved up in my job search recently because I found a few jobs online that I’m both interested in and qualified for. I’m really hoping one of these comes through. Getting a job more in line with what I’m interested in would be wonderful to me and really enrich my life. At present, I’m happy with H, with our life together, with our little apartment, with our finances, and with the little one coming in July. But my job is the one nagging thing that detracts from this wonderful life. I’m really hoping something comes through and that I’m able to get out of this office. The pregnancy thing complicates it a little if I get a job soon. But I’m not going to tell anyone in any interviews I have because it should not make a difference. It’s the government so they’re pretty understanding about maternity leave, etc.
The next day, I went to yoga around noonish and ran a few errands. I came home and realized that DH had gone to a porn website. Grrr…..I don’t know. I guess I don’t really care that much if he looks at porn. He does it rarely and if I don’t know about it and it doesn’t affect our sex life, that’s fine with me. But this is not what I needed now. It hurt because we hadn’t had sex in a few days, because neither he or I had initiated it. I’m still in the “I look fat” stage of pregnancy and feeling self-conscious. I mean, I’m here to have sex with him whenever he wants it. I rarely turn him down. It is much more likely that he will turn me down. I broke down again. DH apologized profusely and said that he was just bored and that if he knew that it upset me, he would never do it. It was just really bad timing. I’ve also told DH in the past I don’t want him going to those websites on our computer, because I don’t want viruses.
We talked and made up and then had some nice make-up sex later that day. The rest of the weekend passed uneventfully. I was kind of bored really and wish that it was warmer and I was more inspired to go out. DH kind of annoys me with his unwillingness to do anything on the weekends. Like he was whining so much about going to the grocery store on Sunday like we usually do, that I let him off the hook and went and did it all. He agreed to make our lunches for the week. He made this really yummy butternut squash soup that we found a recipe for in a What to Expect Eating Right book that someone got me. We make enough for 8 servings and portion it out into little containers and voila, we have lunches for the week. Shopping was a PITA though. Target was insanely crowded, but the deals were so good, I couldn’t pass them up. I hate crowds when shopping and the entire shopping complex was insanity. I stopped at Barnes & Noble to use up a GC I got for Christmas. I got a pregnancy yoga/pilates DVD, another historical fiction book , and ordered a hypnobirthing book that will be delivered soon. Then it was on to Giant to get the rest of the stuff on our list. I got a lot of groceries and I spent a decent amount of money but it is all stuff that will get eaten or used. I wish that we could budget better for groceries, but it is difficult. We try to eat healthy and eat some things organic so it makes it more expensive. We do shop some sales, but many times we decide the menu without looking at the sales. I figure we should have a fully stocked fridge and as long as we’re eating everything in the fridge and pantry and we’re trying to be healthy, then we’re doing pretty good.
I’m more revved up in my job search recently because I found a few jobs online that I’m both interested in and qualified for. I’m really hoping one of these comes through. Getting a job more in line with what I’m interested in would be wonderful to me and really enrich my life. At present, I’m happy with H, with our life together, with our little apartment, with our finances, and with the little one coming in July. But my job is the one nagging thing that detracts from this wonderful life. I’m really hoping something comes through and that I’m able to get out of this office. The pregnancy thing complicates it a little if I get a job soon. But I’m not going to tell anyone in any interviews I have because it should not make a difference. It’s the government so they’re pretty understanding about maternity leave, etc.
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
Today has been grrrr…..
I’ve been dealing with this jacka$$ coworker of mine the whole day and I want to rip his head off. But I’m not going to go into a vent because it will just make me more annoyed. On to happier things, let’s see. My weekend was nice and relaxing. New Year’s was kind of a let down though. DH was too sick to go with me so I went to my friend’s place by myself. I drove since I wasn’t drinking and had to walk 5-6 blocks in the rain (not very fun). I felt bad for my friend. Her parties are usually very popular, but this one was kind of a bust. There was only one other person that came besides me. Everyone else was sick or had somewhere else they wanted to be. It was fun enough for a while but my friends got kind of drunk and me being the only sober one was annoying. I wanted to dip out before New Year’s to climb in bed with DH and give him a kiss at midnight. But I didn’t want to be rude so I stayed.
The rest of the weekend was nice. It was freezing out so DH and I stayed in and did a lot of cleaning, organizing and thinking about how we want to arrange the apartment post-baby. I read a lot, practiced Spanish, and just relaxed. Saturday morning, we got our couches! It was so exciting. They’re wonderful and make such a difference in our living room. They’re comfortable and add so much to the room. We got a few lamps with a GC from JC Penney that really add to the room. It is so addicting though, this decorating thing. I’ve lived without nice, new stuff for so long because I was cheap and didn’t really care that now that I’ve gotten a taste of what a real living room can look like, I want more. We want a new coffee table and end table and then a new dresser in the bedroom…
I can feel the materialistic bug biting into me…I don’t want to live like a college student anymore. I bought my first pair of maternity jeans over the weekend too. They don’t quite fit yet, but my other jeans are getting pretty tight so we’ll see how long they last.
Other baby-related news, we had another doctor’s appointment on Monday. We finally got to hear the heartbeat and it was truly amazing. 150! We only listened for like 10 seconds, but I wanted to listen for hours. The appointment went better this time. We met with a midwive and she was really nice and young and TBH cool. I hadn’t prepared a list of questions like I had planned because of a busy day at work. But I did ask her about a doula and her opinion on it. She said that if we were thinking about going natural then a doula would be best. Also, she recommended hypnobirthing over the Bradley method, saying that women who did hypnobirthing were a lot more relaxed than those who did Bradley. So that is certainly something to think about and do more research.
So I told people at work today and I still don’t know if it was a good idea or a bad idea. It was spur of the moment during a staff meeting and now looking back I wish I had just gone to my supervisor intimately and told her for first. Stupid me. I don’t think it is a big deal but it would have been more prudent and practical for discussing maternity leave. Now I guess the news will spread or not spread considering how no one really likes each other in our office and we’re very large. I will tell a few people that I’m close to and actually like. I’m still desperate to get out of this office though and I don’t know how being pregnant and having people know that will affect it.
Yesterday I was home sick from work thanks to a cold DH shared with me. Although I was definitely sick, it was a really nice day…I got to do everything I wanted to do. I watched a Civil War DVD DH got from his Dad, I surfed the internet and updated my resume, I watched Pride & Prejudice BBC version and played Colonization. Sick days are truly wonderful sometimes. I even found a job I really want and think that I might have a good shot of getting it. I’m trying to find out some more information on what kind of fed govt employee I am. I’m really confused about my status and whether I qualify for non-competitive status or not. I reached out to someone who could help with that and as soon as I hear back from her. I will be finishing my application and praying that this comes through. It would awesome and I’m hating every day in my office so it is nice to have some kind of hope.
The rest of the weekend was nice. It was freezing out so DH and I stayed in and did a lot of cleaning, organizing and thinking about how we want to arrange the apartment post-baby. I read a lot, practiced Spanish, and just relaxed. Saturday morning, we got our couches! It was so exciting. They’re wonderful and make such a difference in our living room. They’re comfortable and add so much to the room. We got a few lamps with a GC from JC Penney that really add to the room. It is so addicting though, this decorating thing. I’ve lived without nice, new stuff for so long because I was cheap and didn’t really care that now that I’ve gotten a taste of what a real living room can look like, I want more. We want a new coffee table and end table and then a new dresser in the bedroom…
I can feel the materialistic bug biting into me…I don’t want to live like a college student anymore. I bought my first pair of maternity jeans over the weekend too. They don’t quite fit yet, but my other jeans are getting pretty tight so we’ll see how long they last.
Other baby-related news, we had another doctor’s appointment on Monday. We finally got to hear the heartbeat and it was truly amazing. 150! We only listened for like 10 seconds, but I wanted to listen for hours. The appointment went better this time. We met with a midwive and she was really nice and young and TBH cool. I hadn’t prepared a list of questions like I had planned because of a busy day at work. But I did ask her about a doula and her opinion on it. She said that if we were thinking about going natural then a doula would be best. Also, she recommended hypnobirthing over the Bradley method, saying that women who did hypnobirthing were a lot more relaxed than those who did Bradley. So that is certainly something to think about and do more research.
So I told people at work today and I still don’t know if it was a good idea or a bad idea. It was spur of the moment during a staff meeting and now looking back I wish I had just gone to my supervisor intimately and told her for first. Stupid me. I don’t think it is a big deal but it would have been more prudent and practical for discussing maternity leave. Now I guess the news will spread or not spread considering how no one really likes each other in our office and we’re very large. I will tell a few people that I’m close to and actually like. I’m still desperate to get out of this office though and I don’t know how being pregnant and having people know that will affect it.
Yesterday I was home sick from work thanks to a cold DH shared with me. Although I was definitely sick, it was a really nice day…I got to do everything I wanted to do. I watched a Civil War DVD DH got from his Dad, I surfed the internet and updated my resume, I watched Pride & Prejudice BBC version and played Colonization. Sick days are truly wonderful sometimes. I even found a job I really want and think that I might have a good shot of getting it. I’m trying to find out some more information on what kind of fed govt employee I am. I’m really confused about my status and whether I qualify for non-competitive status or not. I reached out to someone who could help with that and as soon as I hear back from her. I will be finishing my application and praying that this comes through. It would awesome and I’m hating every day in my office so it is nice to have some kind of hope.
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